| douche and a halfffI should probably start writing on this again. What a classic artifact of my existence it is.
So Sebastian turned out to be a douche and a half.
Which is why I want to start fresh.
Ladies.
Before you ever meet a man...
Make sure you observe your gut feelings.
Don't just stay with someone
because you're desperate.
♥
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| Once I Rose Above The Noise and Confusion.So.
I don't post here a lot anymore. What I feel either is translated into art, poetry, or I tell Sebastian. Who is that? Well, you may be surprised...he's my boyfriend. We met on straphangers.org. Yeah, we're transit retards, but that's okay. He's a bona fide piece of urban trash, just like me.
So he's not perfect...but hell, the bastard tries. We have our ups, and we have our downs.
I don't wanna sound like a cornball, but yes, this kid understands me.
Why look to strangers when someone was waiting for me this whole time?
ten twenty oh seven.
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| Roku's Glamorous Heart Attack.And the answer to everything has been found.
The doubts and the fears
are put to rest.
And even if you secretly hate me
that's all right
because you at least said
that you'd believe in me.
And even if you think
that I'm a spaz
that I'm dumb
that I'm weird
that I'm train proud,
you still tell me
you looked forward to me talking.
And even if I dream of you
I'll still see you in person
from a corner in my eye, but I'll
listen for your voice.
Because you are the absolution
the resolution
the revolution.
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| The Rise of the Undead.I swear, it's been so long since I've been here. I would have posted this blog on MySpace but no one really reads what you have to say there. It's a really shallow site, filled with shallow people.
But then again, aren't we all shallow?
So I've just finished Regents, and I have two weeks to kill.
Yesterday I realized many, many things. I've never had so much fun in my life. I went to Haley's house, out on Staten Island, played Dungeons and Dragons, then came back to Manhattan and went to St. Mark's with Julian. Now that's normally not a big deal, but we pretty much wandered around aimlessly until 8:30 when I found myself wandering, literally, into the 6 train station. I rarely go out that late, so it was a huge shift for me.
It was just so much fun. For once in my life I actually liked what I was doing.
The city lights at night are fascinating.
And so are amish people.
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| Please Hold Me when I Push You Away...I hate how everything's the way I want it to be, and I have to make some smart comment and totally fuck it up. Gosh, I'm so dense. You think I'd THINK about the repercussions of my actions, but no, I just go right on with it. And I hurt someone's feelings, but he's too tough to admit it. Dammit.
But we've made it through worse times. Wow, I make it sound like I'm actually in a relationship. Oh please...haha. It never got that far. I feel like a frog, he jumps twelve inches, but falls back five. But eventually, he gets to his goal of getting out of that pond.
One thing I never lost was my faith in magic.
Anything is possible.
He's my life and light...
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